Read: “When I am afraid, I will put my trust and faith in You” Psalm 56:3 (AMP)
“In God have I put my trust and confident reliance; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?” Psalm 56:11 (AMP)
Reflect: When I get fearful or anxious, I have a strong desire to control. This means when circumstances get chaotic, I want to orchestrate things so the chaos goes away. This is great if the chaos is something that I can easily solve, like a messy bedroom. I can take charge, organize my belongings, and sigh with relief because I corrected the problem. However, when the issue is bigger than my abilities, this tendency is no longer helpful.
2017 started with a bang that shattered my family members in many ways. Overnight we were thrust into some of the hardest circumstances that we have ever had to face. There was NOTHING I could do to fix any of it. As I poured out my fear and helplessness to God, he gently led me again to surrender. He showed me that my past mode of operation was to surrender without completely trusting him. I would follow my “surrender” with directions on how I thought he could (or should) fix the issue. I would tell him which solutions were acceptable and which were not. Essentially, that was about as effective as asking someone else to drive and then repeatedly reaching over to yank on the steering wheel.
We heard this weekend that when we surrender to trust in Jesus, we no longer have to surrender to the doubts and fears holding us back. Without trust in God, I was left spinning in the chaos. Surrender with trust allows me to release my desire to control, and instead fully love those in my family—exactly as they are—while God pieces back together what has been shattered.
React: Ask God to show you the areas where you don’t fully trust him. Lean into him and allow him to hold you together as he breaks and heals you.
Pray: God, thank you for gently piecing us back together. We trust and surrender our future to you.