Read: “…Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me…That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12:7-10 (NIV)
Reflect: For years I’ve struggled with anxiety. I remember being in one of the worst seasons that included panic attacks; it was debilitating. I was literally on my face in my room begging God to heal my mind and body. All I wanted was for God to remove my anxiety and rewire my brain instantly so that I never had to deal with these issues ever again.
Though our God is a God of instantaneous miracles, I knew God’s healing in my heart would be a process. There can be so many reasons why someone might experience anxiety, but mine has very much been fear based. I could beg God to take away everything I was physically feeling when my anxiety spiked, but the truth is, I had to find healing in my heart and mind first. Then I needed to surrender the deeper-rooted fears that were creating anxiety before experiencing a change in the physical manifestations that resulted from it.
Though I would’ve loved for God to erase the anxious space in my mind and heart, just like Paul’s thorn in his side, my anxiety keeps me humbled before God. It’s a constant reminder that no matter what self-work I may do, God is my ultimate healer. “For when I am weak, then I am strong;” for that I am grateful.
React: God has given me a story to share of his glory and my life is a testament to his amazing grace through healing. What weakness might you be wishing for God to remove? Could you consider it beneficial for your growth and your relationship with God, and embrace the joy he will bring as he works out your healing?
Prayer: God, reveal in us our weaknesses that keep us humbled before you. For where we are weak, you make us strong.